HAS ANYONE SEEN AN EXTRA TIE LYING AROUND?
OR ACCIDENTLY TOOK ONE?
OR FOUND THAT A TIE DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU?
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE RETURN TO ME. PLEASE!!
Ohmg, i'm begging you. :(

My tie's really lost, :(
I'm sad. :(
Like really really :(
How can it be lost :(
I remembered that i asked mum to pass it to me, and shoved it into my bag. :(
My bag doesn't have any holes, does it? :(
No, it can't be that it just vanished into thin air. :(
Someone stole it. :(
Or mistook it. :(
Whatever it is, my tie is gone. :(
I shouldn't have poured everything out from my bag. :(
But it was wet! :(
Why must there be rains in the morning? :(
Whywhywhy. :(
Why must my tie be gone? :(
Of all things, WHY MY TIE. :(
Why couldn't it be my school badge, or my school uniform, or my racket?!
Okay, sorry take away the racket part.
MY BELOVED TIE. :(
Gosh, i suck.
Why am i sucha sentimental freak.
Maybe it's not just the sentimental part, it's also the thought of spending money to buy another. Spending money on something that shouldn't even be spent on in the first place.
:(
SUCKARZ.

I shall stop already, makes me sound so whiny. And it's making me sadder.
But dang, i'm poor enough already.
I really don't want to spend money on unnecessary things.
LIKE THE STUPID (6+2)BUCKS I HAVE TO PAY.
What the heck, i didn't even go for camp. Extort money. :(
JTS? Funny much. How the heck is the money divided anyway?
I didn't even get to have one last fun with them, and i have to pay for thin air.
Money doesn't come free. -_-
But sigh.
WHY MUST DARREN BE THE TREASURER?!
If it wasn't him, i swear i confirm won't pay for what BBQ crap.
That amount of money could have contributed to asking those seniors i know to somewhere else, where we can all have good fun, with full attendance.
Damn it.
Friggin' poor now.
AND NOW, I STILL HAVE TO BUY A TIE.
WAHLAO.
:( :( :( :( :(

Okay wth, if only i earn my own money, i wouldn't be so calculative about all these.
But no, it's my parents hard-earned money.
Why the heck am i spending it on nonsense?
Grahhhhhhhhh!
Damn irritated.
:(
I rant until super tired, and angry, and sad.
Human emotions are insane, and pmsy.
And it is during this period of time that one's thoughts are not really proper, so just...
IGNORE. :)

My tie. T_T

9:58 PM
Ohmy, the walls of my house are being repainted and plastered at some spots.
It stinks, hah.
And the house looks bare coz they've moved the furniture and covered them.
I'm having some blocked nose or flu-like thang. OHYEAH! :x
But i'm sure it'll be gone by tomorrow, so no skipping school for me.
Ohwell.

Mass PE today was super funny, was laughing the whole time.
The exercises are not entirely funny, but seeing a whole group of people doing the leg raiser thing sure is.
Damn spastic. :)
Poor knee is starting to hurt again.
I've got good sense to think that it's due to the lousy sports shoe i'm wearing.
I WANT MY ASICS.
Hmm, but i don't want to waste money buying another pair.
I've got one brand new one actually, not gonna wear it coz i don't like it now and besides, it's too big a size for me. Hoh!

Blab. Blab. Blab.
My inclines sucks, real bad.
I need to do at least 10.
What a bummer.
Why do i suck so much at it.
-_-

Oh! Anyway, today's Bio Diagnostic test was fun.
Blue blahblah bird and white blahblah bird.
I love my diagram.
Hope i get full marks for that. Right.
Too bad i didn't have the time to complete my human drawings, it would have been real nice! :p

I am not looking forward to the 3hours PISA thing.
I am not looking forward to the 3hours BI SAI thing.
I am not looking forward to the 3 hours nose shit thing.
I am not looking forward to the 3 hours nasal mucus thing.
LOL.

Alright, so got back all my papers.
Failed all.
I think i will fail my overall GPA.
Wtheck. -_-
Noob is me, thanks.

On a happier note, it's finally SQUASH tomorrow!
Come on baby~ (Italy!) Squash.
Hahaha, the above statment only Fel understands, yeah? ^-^
Lalalalalaaa, squash squash squash.
I will not screw up my squash. I will not screw up my squash. I will not screw up my squash.
Okay, i won't already.
This is called, 'MIND POWER'.
What crap, sorz.
I feel like skipping around now. Hoho.
COME ON BABY!
Okayokay, i am not obsessed, i shall stop it. Lol.
But... I just realised i haven't watched vids of them since sunday.
So it's coming to two whole days! Yay, improvement.

POP IT, LOCK IT, POLKA DOT IT, COUNTRIFY IT, HIP-HOP IT...
Hahha, okay. Dory's been saying it for the whole day.
Don't get me wrong, i'm not a fan of Miley's or Hannah Montana.
I am stil trying to get Dory to go to the other side, where the grass is greener. :)
iCarly, Suite Life are so much better!!
And Transformers! Whops, wrong topic. Haha.

Aigoo, unnie, aigoo! HAHA.
(L)

7:17 PM
Why am i always down to do surveys?! Gosh, so irritating at times.
I mean, if it's some short ones i'm more than happy to do it for you.
But this PISA thing is a whole 3 hours? No shit.
I've got better things to do. Seriously.
So, why am i down for this dumb thing.
What International Assessment crap.
Oh boy, you'll be sorry you chose me to do it.
Asking me to rate Singapore's education system? Hah, funny.
You jolly well know how much i dislike SES.
Ohwell, it shall be fun! (right)
Better be MCQs or i'll slaughter whoever. :)
Be prepared though, i'm so gonna slam SES.
How do you expect me to like SES when i had much better years in TBS/Frobel.
Bleargh. :p

Haha, alright that was a stupid rant.
But why am i always down for surveys. -_-
I don't think it's because i studied overseas before, coz it doesn't make any sense.
My age? Oh, for this survey, maybe. Where's the explanation for the rest though?

That was dumb. I don't have anything to talk about, that's why. :)
It's nothing, i'm alright.

I don't get why some people can just barge into your life and act like they've known you for a damn long time. And expect you to be what they perceive you to be, comparing you with others, when hey! I just got to know you, dude.

Oh, i have one last thing to say:
D has proved to be a total noob. Hee! :)
I have uncovered lots of evidences to show that he is a noob.
Yay.

School tomorrow.
MASS PE, HELL YEAH! :) :)
History, -goes into spasms and hope for the best- :(

11:10 PM
End of the first week of Term3.
Got back the remaining papers, left with history now.

I almost died when i saw my compre marks. I thought i was gonna have a heart attack right there. I think my heart did stop for awhile, got a weak heart. That result of mine hit me the hardest of all the subjects. I know, i'm not one who cares a lot about results. But this time, it got me. I thought i was used to failing, oh i am, guess i'm just not used to failing so much. Goodness. C'mon, what the heck was that. So super disappointed in myself.

Bio, pathetic ttm. I'm sorry, A.

And if getting those results weren't bad enough, someone just had to spoil my day by taking away what i've looked forward to ever since the hols started. Ohwell, why should i care so much. Childishness on my part i guess. It's only ____, and it's a free world. Do whatever you want. I have no right to intervene.

Ahah! But thank God i made the decision to go back to AHS.
I'm certain i'd have felt much worse if i went straight back home. Also, the trip back there did make me feel a whole lot better, all thanks to them. I know 'them' is like quite vague, but those people whom i knew and saw at ahs did brighten up my happiness level unknowingly, even the security guard. And to those whom i talked to, you guys really really never fail to make me smile and make my heart pump more energetically. :) xx

I hardly see or talk to them anymore, since we're in different schools, and i hardly know what's going on in their life. It somehow makes our talks a little awkward, since it's tough to establish a common topic or something. It does make me sad at times. But i don't know, i have this feeling deep inside me that eventhough there's this awkwardness between me and them, there's still like this close feeling that i have towards them. That feeling that they'll always be there if i ever need to approach them, and vice-versa. H'dya describe that. Mhmm... That like eventhough there are complications and politics, at the end of the day there's still something that binds me to them. And i really appreciate and cherish that. I'm not quite sure of the future, but i know and hope that that sweet feeling of mine will stay. Really thanks loads for all that you guys have done even after i've left, leaving you guys. I love every single one of you, yes i do. Thankyou for not forsaking me, even after i've forsaken myself. :'')

这就是幸福。
(woah! i blogged in chinese, yay)

Also, thanks potato. That message really touched me and made me teared. :) Hee.
“一次的失败不是永远的失败”
I don't know what else to say, or how to say it.
I'm just super glad to know that there's at least potato whom i can count on in TA, without so much side-complications.

Oh, yang is flying off tonight. So is sab. Actually wanted to send them off at the airport, but hardly anyone could make it in the end. So, called it off. But isn't it customary to send people off at the airport? Or is it only me. -_- Anyway, they'll be gone for two weeks. That's long.

I'll miss brp, have to run alone... :/

8:02 PM


Slipping down a slide.
The vision at the end is blurred.
Oh, look!
Someone's waiting for me there.
The vision starts to focus.
It's Empty.
Slip, slip, thud.
Empty catches hold of me.
Tight.

The spindle fibers are pulling us apart, with the evil centromeres leading the way.

(darn, i don't even know if that concept is correct)

7:27 PM
This term is gonna suck.
It's not like i'm trying to be a wet blanket down here, or that i'm some pessimistic freak, but yeah things aren't going well ever since the new term started.
And don't give me that, "oh, things will turn out right in the end" kind of nonsense.
It might be better, but i'm super sure it won't be 100% okay.
That's life, gotta deal with it.

$%^&* TSK, I FEEL LIKE SWEARING.
But i shan't.

I think i just need my sports therapy.
Thank God there's PE tomorrow. :)

I don't know who to turn to anymore.
I don't know who i can trust anymore.
I don't know why people change for the worse.
I don't know why relationships are so complicated.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE TO THINK SO MUCH.
-_-

Okay, i may be just over-sensitive on my part.
But i'm close to not being able to take ____ anymore.
I'm trying so hard to ignore ____, but it's impossible to not care about ____ when it plays sucha major role in my life. Kinda, anyway.

Hmmm, please ignore everything in this post.
I'm super sleepy and am not even alert to what i'm typing or thinking.
My body's failing me.

F. I NEED MY SLEEP.
F STANDS FOR FOETICIDE.

Omg, i'm so weird i'm starting to freak myself out.
Bye.

10:24 PM
Yay, JCTs are officially over, but i'm not exactly rejoicing coz i didn't put in much effort towards studying for papers. So yeah, nothing to expect from it.

Everyone's like studying for Chem now while me and dory are slacking. And i feel dumb, coz i just learnt that Library has wifi now. Awesome. But the smart me didn't bring charger, and my tablet won't be able to last me for 4hours. So, i'll have to think of something to do after the battery dies. I hope to play squash, but obviously we can't. Hmmm...

Listening to 'See you in the dark by Honor Society' now. :) It's quite nice lah, but i'm still not very into those noisy parts. Actually, i feel i'm more into accepting those strong noisy beats in songs already, but i still don't like those screamo songs. But like those korean strong beats kind i'm okay with it; 2pm's songs for example. Jamie, be glad. ;) Haha.

Anyway, this video makes me laugh. I love spasticity.

Wondertubbies! :]
It's damn laughyish and cute and sweet at the same time.
MiSo moments, aww.
HYAT! -kick- :D

Aah, i'm quite cold now. Why is it that whenever i bring my jacket i don't have to use it, and when i really need my jacket i don't have it with me. -.-

10:55 AM
My sister has just gone swimming. It's raining heavily and it's so dark at the pool.
Wo bu fang xin lor.
I think i watch too many shows that show people drifting afloat, too many shows where people start cramping and drowning.
What am i thinking man.
Anyhow, i'm gonna keep an eye on her. Haha.
At least until my parents are back, coz they went to get groceries or something.
My sister delivered my dinner to me and came back first.
:)

Hmmm, i want to complain. LOL.
Why doesn't the school allow us to enter the courts?
So what if there's swine flu. It doesn't make any sense to me.
If exams are allowed, why can't self-practices be allowed?
Squash courts are enclosed, classrooms also what.
Nevermind, i shall find something to do tomorrow while waiting.
But i want to squash, badly.
I bet i'm super rusty now after not playing for more than one month.
:(

Plop.
I'm a smashed potato.
Correction.
I'm a SQUASHed potato!
Although i think i'm gonna lose my passion for squash, if i don't go back to it soon.

8:49 PM
The family has gone to eat at Astons, leaving me alone at home to practice my maths. They actually asked me to go together with them, but i didn't want to. It's raining heavily now and i just don't like the idea of getting out of the house after i've showered and all. I'm plain lazy. Haha.

I can't wait for tomorrow's maths paper to be over. Last paper man. All the best to those taking chem! -skips around- NCC (No Chem Club) ROCKS. :p

Ohyea, violin lesson yesterday was real great. Totally enjoyed myself, and it was another laughing lesson. Guess it's due to the reason that i've not had lessons for quite some time already due to my teacher flying to Paris and Italy during the past two weeks or so. How i wish i can go also. Bleargh. Hmmm, i realise i really do love playing the violin. ;) There are certain moments that i feel 'released' after playing. Haha. Which reminds me, i have yet to print out music sheets. Violin music sheets are super hard to find on the net lah, very irritating. Whole day see piano and guitar tabs. Where are the violin scores, hur? Anyone knows where i can find them? Uh, and don't ask me to get piano scores and play the treble clef parts coz i don't like it. It doesn't sound that nice. Plus, i'm lazy to improvise them coz i take super long to improvise and i suck at it.

BS today. It was a start i guess. Everyone shared. :)
I realise relationships play a huge major role in our lifes, like it affects us the most.
Relationships with friends and boyf...
Wait, actually it's more of like, without relationships there's no purpose and no life already.
Yes or No?
At least for me, it's a Yes. I mean, i'll just die if someone asks me to indulge my life in just textbooks or something. Worse still, ask me to 'make friends' with some mathematical formula. Mad.

Shuting, we love you k! -hug- HEE. :)

Alrighto. My beloved maths, here i come.

-
yknow what. somehow seeing that vid makes me tear too. coz the background song was 'still'. and that song is the song that makes me tear whenever i hear it. and it reminds me of the encounter camp i went to years ago. the period of time when i really felt that He was with me and guiding me throughout my everything. but now, i don't know. it seems i've lost the connection already. i can't bring myself to go back. even though i know i desperately need to, coz i do believe that without Him in my life, i'm nothing. not even a speck of dust. i keep pushing Him away. and rejecting the Holy Spirit. why am i sucha idiot. babo.

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

7:41 PM